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I swear the apartments are making crazy noises tonight and the trains or whatever outside are going absolutely apeshit. So what do I do? Homework? No. Take a Tylenol PM? No. No, I write in my livejournal. I'm pretty sure that I can't sleep because I took a nap today. This makes me sad. I miss being able to take a nap and still sleep well at night. Hmm...what should I write about?
Ooh!
So I think that Hamlet is going to be a very good show. I had some serious doubts about it in the beginning, I'm not gonna lie, and I believe there are still some cast members that doubt the quality of certain aspects of the show, but I'm here to say that from an audience perspective it's excellent. Perhaps the best show YSU's MainStage has seen in a while. Blackbox doesn't count...those shows are always awesome.
Just had auditions for Sweeney Todd at the Playhouse. I'm super-excited to see the results. Michael says my audition went well and that he has an idea of where they'll use me. But I won't be happy until I hear it from the director directly. Heehee...director directly.

Ok, I'm getting punchy. This was a completely pointless entry. Unless of course I can fall asleep better now. Let's find out. Goodnight! :-D

I got a Wii.
















Just one more reason that Mike is amazing. :-D

First day of school went very very well. I'm excited about most of my classes...all but make-up require very little besides tests. I'm not concerned about my history of texts paper...I learned my lesson from the first half of the class...and I have made a promise not to procrastinate. So classes were good. AFTER classes, however....not so good. I was on my way to meet Mike at our favorite Chinese restaurant to tell him about my day when I was severely rear-ended by an SUV. Now, my car wasn't totalled or anything, but I'm definitely going to need a new trunk and rear bumper. I'm just hoping that the frame is ok...if anything happened to the frame...I'll just have to get a new car. :( I love my little Civic though...my little Ricky. My fender bender was unfortunately caused by my stopping for another accident that had happened mere seconds before...but luckily my car was not involved in that one and nobody was severely injured. My neck and upper back hurt a little more this morning than they did...but not as badly as the doctor said they would. I think I have a high tolerance for pain. So I got a work release for the next two days because he said carrying plates and trays would probably not help my shoulder muscles too much. Now I'm just resting today so that I can be as efficient as possible tonight at rehearsal. Thank God for Ibuprofen.

So the Marqee Awards are tonight...and I have butterflies in my stomach. Oooohhh I'm so nervous!!! I'm completely ready to leave...like my hair is done...I bought a new dress for the occasion...I must say I look pretty goddam foxy right now...I'll post pictures on facebook sometime soom. I'm up for best actress in a musical...and I am so scared that if I don't win I'll start crying and look like a big loser. I hate losing...ahhh...I wish my mom and dad would just get here so I could leave and at least eat dinner. Oh I'm sooo excited!!! I've never been to an awards ceremony where I actually won the award. I won a Marqee last year for best supporting actress in a musical...but I didn't know I was even nominated so I didn't go. Ok...so I'm going to go ask Erin for advice on shoes...be back...


Alright...I'm going with the black strappies...final answer.



The parents are here...time to go....wish me luck!!!

So I think I have allergies. I woke up about 24 minutes ago with the worst sore throat I've had since yesterday. My nose was all stuffed up and blech, but I don't feel sick, and it's been happening ever since the weather has become super-warm. Boo. If having allergies means I have to wake up at 6:06 every day I'm gonna have to look into some Zyrtec or something. BIG BOO.


Jekyll and Hyde closed on Sunday...and OH MY GOD I am seriously wanting to cry having just typed it. I don't think I have EVER had this much emotional attachment to a show. For a while I thought that I was this sad to see Cinderella end back in the day, but that was definitely more of a "this is my last musical in high school and maybe ever" thing. This is certainly not the same feeling. I feel like...ugh, I feel like I just broke up with someone. Part of my routine, part of my fun, part of me is just...gone. Every time I look in the mirror I think of how I can't wait to dye my hair back to something more me, but then I don't want to because this silly blonde is my last way of clinging to Emma and the story and memories that come with her. It's bizarre!

Sad to say, I've never had an experience so fulfilling before.

It makes me feel a little bit magical...because the cast was magical, the crew was magical, the staff, the audiences, the posters, the costumes, the lights, the theater itself was magical.

I needed this show more than I think I'll ever understand...yet at the same time I know exactly what it's done for me.





I can do anything. :-)

I got through today.

Alive.

And very proud of myself. :-D



That is all.

I think I'm losing my mind.
Scratch that.
I think I want to trade minds with someone else, maybe a math major, or maybe a 5-year-old, and then trade back after finals are over.
Ok, I'm going to organize my day...well, my next week or so right now.
Today:
Performing my prose piece in Oral interp at 10 until class ends at 11
From 11 to 2 I'll be at the Master Class, hopefully singing for whoever.
At 2 I'll head over to Beehgley for Stage Combat where I'll practice 2 Katas for 2 hours and hopefully Kari and I will be able to actually add some dialogue into ours.
Then at 4 we have the actual Stage Combat reciatl where I'll perform these two Katas for a grade (one for bonus points...thank god!)
After that I'll head straight over to the Youngstown Playhouse for rehearsal for Jekyll and Hyde until approximately 10:00
That's today.
Tomorrow I work from noon until midnight or later. Easy. Mindless. Yay.
Sunday - At 1:00 I have an appointment to have my hair dyed light brown/blonde. That should be nice and relaxing...although I have the feeling that once I see the finished product I'll cry a little bit. Then at 6:30 it's back to Jekyll and Hyde.
Monday, classes should be fine...nothing due...spare time needs to be dedicated to drafting final projects for lighting design. Ok, for now I'll look forward to Monday.

Back to drying my hair...an figuring out what the hell to wear today.

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I'll be back.

My Nephew!!!



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I'm sooo proud!!!


But he's in the hospital again...he's having trouble eating and lost some weight. But the doctors figured out what's wrong and are going to put him on medicine. But say a little prayer anyway. :-D

So I haven't updated in a while...probably due to the fact that I've barely had time to sleep. I actually have some free time this afternoon before the show...and I SHOULD be doing homework...but I've decided to relax as I wish instead.

OOH OOH!!! I'm an Aunt finally!!! Aunt Steph!!! :-D I am soooo super-duper excited!!! I can't wait to actually go visit and see the baby! Jason Christopher O'Connor was born on February 16th at 3:15 in the afternoon weighing 7 pounds and 12 ounces and was 21 inches long! He was born with a collapsed lung, so I guess after they fixed it he was a little Jaundice and they had to keep him in the hospital for a few days...but he's healthy now!! Ahh I can't wait to buy baby things! ...Now I want one...:(

Seussical is going. So far neither of the shows have been what I would call "great". They were mediocre. They've all had some technical problems...some vocal problems...and some Stiver problems. FYI...I hate him. He is the only person alive that has ever been able to make me feel like I should change my major. I have seriously thought about it. What I hate even more is that I actually let what he says get to me. It shouldn't...it really shouldn't. He's just so rude and inconsiderate of other people...even when he's trying to coach someone he has to make some remark that is either completely off-color and inappropriate or just down right mean. But I'm done wasting my energy ranting about him. It's not worth it.

I just auditioned for Jekyll and Hyde and I'm hoping that I'll get some sort of a part in that. I hate not knowing when my next show is. Oh! I do know that next winter (and yes it's a long time off) Mike and I are going to be playing in "Baby" together at the Oakland. Joanne Carney-Smith is directing it and asked us if we'd be in it. It's sounds like a really cute show. It's about 3 couples...one that's in their 50's one that's in their 30's and one that's in their 20's that all find out they're pregnant. Naturally Mike and I will be the youngest couple...and the others will be played by some super-talented people as well...I just don't know how to spell all of their names so I'm not going to try here. So I'm excited about that for sure.

Not much else going on...the review in the Vindicator is out today...so I'll go see if there's one in the Tribune too.

Homework time.
Damn.

Why did the Steelers go to the Superbowl?




















TO WIN IT!!!! :-D

I'M 21!!!!!!!!!!!!



AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Hello dear friend, and helper of procrastination...how glad I am to have you.

Yuppity yuppity yuppity.

Now THAT is a fun word. Unless it's some sort of racial slur that I don't know about...which is quite possible.

But yeah...I'm thinking that it's time to switch to a more festive LJ scheme. I'm SOOOOO excited for CHRISTMAS!!!!

That should kill some time...time in which I should be working on my history of texts paper. Or doing one of 4 directing analyses which are due. Or critiquing The Miser...or anything productive.

Didn't go to New York this weekend as planned. Mike's Aunt Theresa passed away...so the trip with his family has been post-poned indefinitely. I feel bad. I chickened out on going to the funeral with him. Well, the viewing AND the funeral. But I was sick for the funeral...even though I think some of the sick feeling was from me being scared of going. I've never been to a funeral. All of my relatives died when I was too little to go. My momma didn't want me to see that kind of stuff when I was in the single digits. And I think that's ok. But it's something I need to learn to do. I've only been to one viewing...and it was so completely traumatizing that I don't really care to relive it right now. In fact, I'm ending this topic right now so I don't get depressed.

Yesterday me and my mommy and daddy and Michael spent the day in Pittsburgh!!

We went to the Carnegie Science Center and took a look at the miniature village! They added some really cute little things to it to make it a little more "Pittsburghy". We saw a super-boring show in the planetarium...but they had this AWESOME display on how they make movies and stuff...I knew most of the information already from classes here...but they had all of these neat artifacts...like Satine's "Diamonds" costume from "Moulin Rouge"!!!! OMG!!! AND they had the model of Satine's elephant that they used for all of the aerial shots!!! It was soooooo neat!!! I love that movie. *grin* Unfortunately they also had one of the ET puppets...*shiver*. Scared the hell out of me...it's probably the first time a 20 year old gil got scared at the Science Center. Then we took off for Station Square...grabbed a bite at the Hard Rock...where service was terrible but we could watch the pretty fountain so it wasn't that bad. :-D

Then we went outside to actually watch the fountain...and it was just so perfect. It was just chilly enough to make my nose red...but Mike's hugs kept me warm...and it was just sooo wonderful to spend the day happy. With my mom and my dad and Michael...the 3 people I love the most in the world. :-D I'm so incredibly blessed. I sometimes wonder what I did to be as lucky and as happy as I am. :-D

I can't wait for Christmas!!!

What a fabulous opening night!!!!!!!

So it's been a loooong while since I actually updated this fandangled thing.

What's going on...

Well I'm sitting here watching Conan...knowing darn well that I should be asleep right now, trying to knock this cold that's plaguing my existence, but I started fiddling on the old computer and decided to play around on LJ.

Classes are actually supergreat right now. Acting 4 is the entertainment of my Tuesdays and Thursdays, but holy crappers is it hard to perform for the camera...not to mention how hard it is to actually look GOOD on camera. Directing 1 is different. I'm not quite sure how I like directing just yet, but starting tomorrow we'll find out. We've got auditions for the 1-acts tomorrow at 4 and 8, I'm pretty freaking excited about that. All other classes are too boring to be mentioned...although history of texts does put a smile on my face when Doc Cass. makes fallic jokes. That's just...yeah.

Marigolds came and went. I have to say it's been a while since I learned so much from doing a show. I never realized just how much people can change in a short period of time. I know I have...I know for a while I wasn't myself at all. But I feel like I've been coming back into ...

Ok, thought related to what I'm watching on Conan right now. I know why some actors don't like being the center of attention on their Birthdays. This is also a revelation I have just made about myself. Generally on your birthday you get all the attention. Which, to a performer would be a dream come true. BUT...the attention is just handed to you...so what fun is that!? So yeah...I feel awkward when people sing Happy Birthday to me because I'm just sitting there and getting attention...and I only LIKE attention if I feel like I've accomplished something by getting it. OK...commercial break...thought terminated.

As I was saying. I feel like I'm coming back to where I was a few years ago, but smarter and more mature. What else did I learn? Ah...I learned who my friends are. Sadly I have fewer than I thought. There's probably a handful or less of people in this school that I actually trust/respect as human beings/enjoy the company of and it's making me come across as a total snobby biotch, but I don't really think I care. The people worth knowing and getting close to will see that I'm just keeping my space because there are so many untrustworthy hateful people in this world. It makes me really sad. Really really sad. I wish people could be happy for others' successes. I understand competition, I understand disappointment, but dear God...don't belittle that other person's accomplishment or make them feel guilty of it. Let them celebrate...celebrate with them...even if you don't think they'd celebrate with you. I think one of the worst evils is the one that steals the momentary happiness from someone who truly deserves it. My favorite snack of thought is that "Marigolds" proved to me that Theater is still powerful. With a small space, some everyday words, and the magic of imagination, we as a cast and crew inspired tears. That's what theater is all about...and this show reaffirmed my faith in that.

Ok, enough with the thoughtful mumbo jumbo. "Five Women Wearing the Same Dress" is great. It' scary to think we open in 9 days....holy shit...WE OPEN IN 9 DAYS!!! Wow, ok. So yeah...the show is funny. It's really nice to be playing a character that isn't 12. And I'm SUPER excited to actually have lines in Mainstage play at YSU. Actually...come to think of it...this is my first Mainstage Play period. Musicals are different. Much different. The only downside to this show is that my dress is a teensy bit small. So now I feel like a total cow...and I know that I did indeed gain some weight over the summer...therefore it's time for Feffie to get in shape. Woo hoo.

I have two spider bites on my leg. Boo.

My sister is having a BOY!!! I'm soooo excited...I'm gonna have a nephew!!! I was kinda hoping it was going to be a girl so I could get her her first Barbie...but I guess I could still get a boy a Barbie. SHE COULD HAVE A GAY BABY BOY!!! Oh my god...I could just teach him EVERYTHING! Well, excluding fashion. I'm finding it increasingly hard to dress myself. My intelligence on trends right now is negative. Ooh! But I did take Mike shopping...and holy hell did I get him some hot outfits. I think I did pretty good helping him find some yummy clothes. Now I just have to find some for myself so I can keep up with him. :-D

I've been kinda homesick lately. I'm looking forward to getting home in a few days to see my Mommy and my Daddy and my kitties. I almost forget what my house looks like. Ok not really...but I really do miss my Mom. She's got Strepp throat, and it's just making me worry about her and be afraid that she's dying..and then I get all depressed because I really have no idea how I would survive without her.

Well that was an earful...er, eyeful. But my ranting crave has been satisfied. Before I leave you...two people who inspire me to be a better person : Krista Barr and Johnnethen Pierce. The former for being way more mature and intelligent than most people I know...the latter for having such a zeal and passion for theater and life that the smallest things produce more excitement in him than Christmas does in a dozen 7 year olds. If once a day I could show just a trace of either of those traits my life would be more fulfilled.

On an ending note, I just want to say how incredibly in love I am with Mike. That's all. I just wanted to end on a happy note before I go to sleep...and he's my happiest note.

1. Reply with your name, and I shall write something random and maybe a tad witty about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. Or you remind me of.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in. Or maybe pudding if I'm feeling particularly adventurous. Depends....
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me. Or at least I'll attempt to.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you. Or.... the earliest I can remember. Or just some super memorable moment. Not 100% sure on this one yet.
6. I will tell you what plant or animal you remind me of. Because, after all, plants are alive, too. Just easier to catch.
7. I will then ask something I've always wondered about you. Or.... yeah. Nevermind. I'll ask that, although the "always" is relative to how long I've known you.



1. Krista - I look down on you...in the literal sense :-D
2. Anything with the Muppets...and I honestly can't say why...
3. Regular old clear Gelatin...under a black light...because I'm imagining that looks pretty damn cool.
4. Thank you for making eye contact. Blarhg blar blaaaaa
5. Spotlight theater...you were sitting with your mom and I was running around in circles showing my ass to the world.
6. Not gremlins...I think they're called wookies...I honestly can't remember...those cute things that wear the robes with the hoods in Star Wars. I've only seen the movie like...once...so that's the best I can do.
7. How old were you when you found out about Santa Clause?



1. Missy - You're just one of the most angelic people I've met
2. Lord of the Rings..."I can't carry it for you...but I can carry you" :'(
3. A lot of Dinosaur shaped Jello Jigglers...of assorted colors
4. I am a great magician
5. I remember my freshman year when I played the piano for you before your audition for Company...and you almost didn't audition...but I was sooooo proud of you when you got an incredible part!!!
6. A hen...your hugs are like wings.
7. How do you stay so mysterious?



1. Alyssa - I'm sorry I'll have to yell at you every time we run act two
2. Bambi...
3. Strawberry...while glitter floats through the air.
4. Oh anything we said to harass Johnetthen with in Make-Up
5. Hmm...I remember the day that Krista introduced me to you...but then I can't remember anything until Make-Up
6. A baby deer...i.e. Bambi
7. Do you have any relatives with the last name Bowser?


1. Brandon
2. Any movie with Kung Fu in it
3. Jello salad...you know the stuff with the pretzels and the cool whip?
4. Chris Cobb...
5. The one memory that really stands out in my head is when I saw you at the first rehearsal for Mike's Gospel show last summer...I saw you and was sooo excited to see a friendly face...even though I didn't know you that well yet..I recognized you from school.
6. A camel
7. What are you doing when you graduate?

1. Reply with your name, and I shall write something random and maybe a tad witty about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. Or you remind me of.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in. Or maybe pudding if I'm feeling particularly adventurous. Depends....
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me. Or at least I'll attempt to.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you. Or.... the earliest I can remember. Or just some super memorable moment. Not 100% sure on this one yet.
6. I will tell you what plant or animal you remind me of. Because, after all, plants are alive, too. Just easier to catch.
7. I will then ask something I've always wondered about you. Or.... yeah. Nevermind. I'll ask that, although the "always" is relative to how long I've known you.

Well hello everyone...I'm alive. Summer has been full of surprises for me and my family...and I'm proud to say I've survived them all. Where to start?

Well, my Dad found a job, so he's super excited to be working again...and I'm incredibly proud of him for being persistent. On the other hand, my Mom lost her job, and she truly loved it. I think what makes her situation sadder is the fact that the kids she was working with will miss her so very very much. I spent a day with her while her kids were in school and my goodness how they just adored her. She worked with special needs students...and I know she's more worried about how they'll do without her friendly face around than she is about getting another job. Rightly so. She's been a fabulous mother...and I know she was shaping those kids the same way she did me.

Speaking of kids...we recently found out that my sister is pregnant! I'm gonna be an aunt!!! Woo hoo!! Aunt Stephanie here I come! She's due in February...right around Valentine's day. I'm sooo excited and happy for her. It's been a good decade and a half since there was any kind of baby in my immediate family...this will be all kinds of exciting. Although my Dad isn't so sure how he feels about being a Grandpa.

Work at Friday's is good...no more credit card bills...just making money for saving. I'm hoping that I can keep working during the school year and that by the end of it I'll be ready to haul my ass out of Youngstown and transfer to NYC. Cross your fingers for me.

I'm really excited about Marigolds starting soon. I've been itching all summer to perform somewhere...and while the Gospel show was fun it just didn't satisfy my craving.

So I'm getting three new roommates next year...how about that huh? Not too sure how I feel about this. I thought I was only getting one...and I thought I knew who it was...but apparently not. Ok...so thinking about this is making me angry and I don't want to think about it any more.

On a lighter note...I'm reading "The DaVinci Code" by Dan Brown right now. I've always been a bookworm, but Mike had literally never opened one, so he decided that if I like it as much as I do that it can't be ALL bad. So we decided we'd both read the previously mentioned book together. It's fabulous...if you haven't read it...READ IT...and if you HAVE read it...tell me what you think!!!

Ok, enough blabbering...I'm sleepy. Goodnight all!